Musings on the last night of single hood

And now it’s come to this. After months of preparation and planning it still feels surreal that tonight is going to be the last night I’ll be living a life that used to be just about me – my time, my needs, my wants, my dreams. In its very essence, single hood. Tomorrow it will be him and me and the coming days it will be more about him and less and less of me. Or maybe more about we. (So God please help me…become the best wife I could be.)

After all the wedding drama and the boo-hoos, at the end of the day what really matters is the choice we make, and the best choice we could make for each other. I know I could get a little overboard and become over the top bridezilla, but when tomorrow is gone, and all these are done, it’s just going to be him and me. Together for the rest of our lives in the best and worst times. In good weather and under the scorching heat with our occasional tempers.

All of these God thank you. I never even thought I would be getting married, but here I am and here we are with God as the painter, the writer, the author, the creator, – bringing us two broken people back together, over and over, to strengthen and bring out the best from each other.

Now I understand why even the worst day can sometimes be the best day as long as you are in the company of the one you love. I couldn’t imagine myself being with someone else.

Today, as it strikes 12 midnight, is going to be the best day – I’m going to be the wife of the love of my life. 🙂

1 Cor 13:7-8 (Love) always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Anniversary 4 years ago :)

Anniversary 4 years ago 🙂

Dealing with Jealousy

Proverbs 14:30 A tranquil heart gives life to the flesh, but envy makes the bones rot.

JEALOUSY
one of the enemies of the heart that can be concealed for a time, but later on rots the bone and gives off a bitter and sour scent.

This is one of the hardest things to admit since we couldn’t bear to say even to ourselves that, i’m jealous of his / her fortune or i’m jealous of what he / she has.

When we catch ourselves spiting another or being bitter about something, we know we are falling into the sin of jealousy. Also another evidence would be in James 3:16 For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice.

Whenever I feel that my words are turning bitter or sour referring to another person, I have to check my heart. God wants me to admit this sin to him, to myself, and to my accountability partner/group. And once I do admit it, I feel this sense of freedom from the sourness and jealousy that’s rotting my bones, and affecting my life.

From the book ENEMIES of the HEART, to counteract jealousy, we need to celebrate. Genuinely celebrate others fortune, talent, skills, qualities. If others deserve a compliment, we do not hold it back from them. We need not covet God’s gift for them, because God has blessed us too. We just need to discover and nurture what we have. Their strength may be our weakness, but our strength may be their weakness.

I am blessed to have heard how to counteract feelings of envy / jealousy through our bible study group last Tuesday and now that I know about it, I have no excuses.

It wasn’t an accident for me to hear it. Now I know that God has given us this knowledge, God expects us to know how to counteract these feelings of envy / jealousy.

So the next time envy / jealousy is beginning to stir within me, I need to tell myself (with the guidance and empowerment of the Holy Spirit), that God does not owe me anything, but in fact I owe Him everything.