Last week, Jason and I had the opportunity to take care of our 2 nephews who slept over for 2 nights. For almost 3 years, we have been looking out for just ourselves here at home and suddenly we are a (temporary) family of 4! 🙂 I have just been cooking in a small pot for the two of us, and all of a sudden I had to use the biggest pot we have last week. From 1 cup of rice to 4 cups of rice. How fast our family has grown. ;p
On the boys’ last day, we watched a dinosaur movie on Youtube. And you know how sometimes there are ads in between the movie? This movie had lots of it. The first time I saw an ad during the dinosaur movie, all kids decided to skip it. I didn’t know how to operate the multiple remotes of the TV (in the other house), so we asked TopTop’s (our nephew) nanny to skip it for us.
So we watched again.
After a few minutes, the ad went on. again. I was feeling that the kids were going to get impatient and I was also a little annoyed at the “pause” due to ads in the movie and wanted to get it going. So I said to Top, let’s skip the ad, and call your nanny again. Then his answer caught me by surprise. He said “Be patient” I said, “What did you say, Top?” He told me again, “Be patient”. Then he got a pillow, put it on my lap and laid down.
What just happened? I was really surprised. Here was a 3 year old telling a 28 year old to be patient. How ironic could that be? I pondered this in my heart and it was impressed on me to evaluate this aspect of my life. To be honest I was really rebuked. He was like an adult giving me wise advice.
When I think about it, I realized, how many times have I been impatient? Wanting to press on to the next chapter of our lives because I thought of how people will think? How many times have I wanted to try to control things at my own terms for the convenience of it?
But God is so good that He’s stopping me from being controlling.
It was impressed on me that sometimes God brings a pause on our lives or a pause in the fulfillment of the desires of our hearts to teach us patience – to trust in Him COMPLETELY and His perfect time, in His own terms. Not mine.
Through Top, it was impressed on me the image of what patience and waiting on God is – to choose to rest on Him, to watch and wait (expectantly) on Him knowing that He WILL come. How beautiful this image was! Is this what God wants of us?
Most of us are waiting – to get married, to find our purpose in life, to get work that will be fulfilling and meet our needs, to have a child, to finalize a deal or transaction, to get a spiritual breakthrough, or even to get our break in our careers. The transitions in our lives or the “pauses” are inconvenient but I have the assurance of His truth that He loves me and He loves each and everyone of you too, and He wants what is best for us.
In one of the devotions I read from Oswald Chambers, I would like to paraphrase that the life of faith is indeed uncertain, and the only certainty is God. I can trust Him, cast our anxieties on Him because He loves and cares for me. 1 Peter 5:7
When pauses come, thank God! Because there is a lesson to be learned about Him. Maybe it could be for our protection or for us to realize that He is sovereign. Whichever it may be, we have the assurance of His word that He will sustain us throughout this season and that He has made everything beautiful in His time. Ecclesiastes 3:11
Psalm 27:14 Wait patiently for the LORD. Be brave and courageous. Yes, wait patiently for the LORD.
Isaiah 40:31 31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.